The Apostate Crusader

"Let us for a moment imagine that the act of procreation were not a necessity or accompanied by..."

Wed, 22 May 2013 17:51:42 -0400

“Let us for a moment imagine that the act of procreation were not a necessity or accompanied by intense pleasure, but a matter of pure rational deliberation; could then the human race really continue to exist? Would not everyone rather feel so much sympathy for the coming generation that he would prefer to spare it the burden of existence, or at any rate would not like to assume in cold blood the responsibility of imposing on it such a burden? The world is just a hell and in it human beings are the tortured souls on the one hand, and the devils on the other. I suppose I shall have to be told again that my philosophy is cheerless and comfortless simply because I tell the truth, whereas people want to hear that the Lord has made all things very well. Go to your churches and leave us philosophers in peace!”

- Arthur Schopenhauer (via nietzsche-spoke-thus)

"Women are afraid of meeting a serial killer. Men are afraid of meeting someone fat."

Wed, 22 May 2013 17:03:24 -0400

“Women are afraid of meeting a serial killer. Men are afraid of meeting someone fat.”

-
When Strangers Click, a 2011 documentary about online dating.

It reminds me of that famous Margaret Atwood quote: “Men are afraid that women will laugh at them. Women are afraid that men will kill them.” It also reminds me of something written by one of the mods of Sex Worker Problems: “Misandry irritates. Misogyny kills.”

I mean, it’s just true.

(via tealeafprincess)

There are some people I talk to who I am unable to help in any meaningful way. Their problems are...

Wed, 22 May 2013 13:30:00 -0400

There are some people I talk to who I am unable to help in any meaningful way. Their problems are either beyond anything I’m capable of helping with, or they are too far away for me to provide a simple solution to anything. Despite this, I always offer to do whatever I can, even if it’s not much, often using some variant of this phrase:

“Anything within my power.”

It’s a little shocking and almost terrifying to realize that the purview of “within my power” is so much larger than I thought. And that if I manage to live up to that promise, I’ll need to convince some people I’m not insane for doing so…

heresypainting: A recently finished horde of skeletons, ready...

Wed, 22 May 2013 00:39:07 -0400

heresypainting:

A recently finished horde of skeletons, ready to kill some adventurers.

Minis are from Games Workshop, painted by me.

Processed Meats Declared too Dangerous for Human Consumption

Tue, 21 May 2013 12:18:18 -0400

Processed Meats Declared too Dangerous for Human Consumption:

The World Cancer Research Fund recently completed a detailed review of 7,000 clinical studies covering links between diet and cancer. Upon conclusion it is evident that processed meats are dangerou…

I saw this link on facebook, and the comments made me hate everything. Everyone said things along the lines of “We already knew this food is shit now give me more hot dogs!!1!”

Know what sounds like a good idea?

Sun, 19 May 2013 21:53:22 -0400

violettendencies:

Making passive aggressive posts complaining about friends that you know will eventually read them, basically insulting them instead of ACTUALLY TALKING ABOUT IT TO THEM. Which results in making things worse for yourself.

That’s right, I’m talking to you, Mike.

I don’t recall saying anything insulting, though if I did it was unintentional and I apologize. I’m pretty sure the thing I said regarding you was that I was worried I wouldn’t be able to make the game fun for you. If self-deprecation is insulting to anyone but myself, I was unaware.

So, getting upset with someone and calling them “passive-aggressive” for worrying that they won’t be able to entertain you? Yeah, pretty good idea.

Update: D&D is going very well and I’m happy with this start.

Sun, 19 May 2013 16:03:01 -0400

Update: D&D is going very well and I’m happy with this start.

I have some thoughts I need to get out, and I don’t think I have any other outlets than this....

Sun, 19 May 2013 14:00:00 -0400

I have some thoughts I need to get out, and I don’t think I have any other outlets than this. Some of these thoughts pertain to other people who will very likely read this; I really hope none of what I say is taken badly by anyone concerned. I wish I had someone to talk to privately about everything on my mind, but everyone I can think of is directly related to my thoughts. So here’s what’s been weighing me down…

I feel like things keep changing around me while I stay in the same place. I’m stagnated and stuck in place while the world moves past me. People change and leave and new people show up and change and leave and more new people show up. And it seems like as I’m finally realizing how much people do change me and I’m capable of growth, I’m only moving towards another lonesome road. (I get poetic sometimes, I apologize for the flowery language.)

I was so excited for the D&D game I was working on for later today, but I lost my enthusiasm for it. I think the main reason is that my players didn’t seem enthusiastic about it anymore when they made their characters. Maybe it’s unfair of me to expect people to be excited about character creation, but they spent that time bickering with each other and I didn’t get the feeling that they were looking forward to playing. If the goal of a GM is to make sure players have fun and I’ve already failed before the game starts, what does that say about me?

I’m also worrying like a complete moron about a romantic issue. There’s someone who I have strong feelings for, who at one point reciprocated my feelings but I doubt she still does. She lives very far away and had a boyfriend when I first developed those feelings, so despite a mutual attraction the situation was always “maybe someday.” She’s found someone else recently though, who sounds like a really great guy, and the significant part of me that cares about her thinks that’s great. The part of me that cares about me, however, is scared. My situation hasn’t changed, of course, it never does, but does that remove the “maybe someday”? If he’s as great a guy as he sounds like, I would feel horrible for hoping things don’t work out for them in the long run. And even if things don’t work out, how could I expect to have a chance with her? Even if the opportunity came around, wouldn’t that make me a terrible friend if I asked for more?

The people I seem to connect with best are all at least a decade older than me, some more than twice my age. I’m not sure if that’s strange, and I feel bad that I don’t intend to stick around here much longer. It’s so rare to find people who you can connect with so easily, and I feel bad that my age makes me something of an outsider. It’s almost like I’m seeing a group of friends with their lives not perfect but settled nicely, like a future I wish I could have when I’m older, but that still means I don’t fit into this picture. It bothers me.

I would write more, but now I need to run the D&D game. Even if I’m not as enthusiastic about it, I still feel like I need to get something established. I hope it picks up once I get it going, I could really use a good place to toss some creative energy. I’m sorry to anyone who bothered to read through this.

I’ve been contemplating some emotional stuff lately. The only solid conclusion I’ve come...

Sun, 19 May 2013 12:47:12 -0400

I’ve been contemplating some emotional stuff lately. The only solid conclusion I’ve come to so far is that emotions are absolutely terrifying.

I’ve reblogged this before but it’s beautiful and...

Sat, 18 May 2013 22:56:37 -0400

I’ve reblogged this before but it’s beautiful and I’m reblogging it again.

Star Wars and Philosophy

Sat, 18 May 2013 13:48:14 -0400

Anakin: In the circumstances surrounding loyalty, fealty and overall alignment of purpose and action, one is either of entirely one mind with the person so referred to by the practice of the perpendicular pronoun, or one must be said to be in a state colloquially referred to as being "at odds". Any state of matters which can be said to be as falling within these two extremes is so insufficiently asseverative as to be fundamentally and wholly indistinguishable from opposition.
Obi-Wan: Individuals or persons not counting themselves among the number of those who refer to themselves as "the Sith", would be hard pressed to make a statement as utterly categorical, and not admitting, upon mature reflection, of views which, at the end of the day, would have to be said to be more balanced (in an, of course, non-epistemological fashion) and, frankly, more sophisticated.

I feel like I’ve been relatively quiet on tumblr lately (I’m probably completely wrong),...

Fri, 17 May 2013 20:19:00 -0400

I feel like I’ve been relatively quiet on tumblr lately (I’m probably completely wrong), so here’s some life updates I guess.

I’m finished with finals, so that’s it for school for a while. It’s weird having nothing to worry about getting done. It was really frustrating to get everything finished on time, but I guess I managed it and now I’m trying to convince myself not to feel guilty for relaxing a bit.

I’ve been working on a Pathfinder campaign for the summer that I’m supposed to start on Sunday, but to be honest I’m not terribly thrilled about running a game with only two players. I wish there was someone else I could grab for a casual game, but unless I get something on the schedule at the local store I don’t think there’s anyone else who could join.
I’m also fiddling with a bunch of rules for this game, and I’m finding it slightly difficult to find the middle ground between game balance and keeping players happy. I feel like I always go too far in either direction. But then I guess most GMs worry about their games too much.

My birthday is in two weeks. I have a bunch of different emotions about that, none of them good. I seem to dread my birthday more every year, for whatever psychotic reason.

adepth-ofpureblue: sp00nful: Chicken Taco Salad NEED TO...

Fri, 17 May 2013 16:42:33 -0400

adepth-ofpureblue:

sp00nful:

Chicken Taco Salad

NEED TO MAKE

Remove the chicken and that looks pretty fucking awesome. =)

"Under Moffat’s watch the Doctor has morphed from an alien who loves humans and feels their pain and..."

Wed, 15 May 2013 19:18:20 -0400

“Under Moffat’s watch the Doctor has morphed from an alien who loves humans and feels their pain and experiences love and desire and empathy to a stunted, child-like and extremely bloody irritating space-goon who flaps about like an injured moth when other people’s emotions are making him uncomfortable. And makes sexist jokes about how women are scary. And wants his married companions to sleep in bunk beds. And can save human lives but does not seem to understand human feelings. Who would travel with this man? He might be zany and charming and have nice boots, but he is fundamentally cold and unrelatable.”

- x (via draculemihawks)

I hate what Moffat has brought to Who SO much.

(via drbuttocks)

escapistaz: If we’re friends, there’s a 106% chance that I’m always petrified that you secretly...

Wed, 15 May 2013 13:33:15 -0400

escapistaz:

If we’re friends, there’s a 106% chance that I’m always petrified that you secretly hate me.

soycrates replied to your post: enamored-ensemble reblogged your post: If you had… check your...

Tue, 14 May 2013 14:37:43 -0400

soycrates replied to your post: enamored-ensemble reblogged your post: If you had…

check your mage privilege?

You don’t understand! White mages have it rough too! I mean, everyone loves black mages, and the blue mages are taking all of the jobs, so there’s nothing left for us poor white mages. We’re the oppressed ones! Really!

(God I hope people realize I’m being satirical.)

enamored-ensemble reblogged your post: If you had to cast me in a typical RPG class or...

Tue, 14 May 2013 14:31:23 -0400

enamored-ensemble reblogged your post: If you had to cast me in a typical RPG class or archetype…

Whitemage

Was that a response to me, or just a general reaction to the question?

If you had to cast me in a typical RPG class or archetype...

Tue, 14 May 2013 14:25:39 -0400

iamtrexhearmeroar:

What would it be?

thefemaletyrant: nok-ind: Builders bulldoze one of largest...

Tue, 14 May 2013 11:59:29 -0400

thefemaletyrant:

nok-ind:

Builders bulldoze one of largest Mayan pyramids in Belize

One of the oldest and most famous Mayan pyramids has been destroyed by a construction company in Belize, while digging for crushed rock for a road they were building.

They actually did.

The astounding thing about that article (to me) is that they just started digging through the pyramid. They didn’t even inform, let alone ask the government about it, and apparently made no attempts to find their materials somewhere else first.

The sheer arrogance of that is mind-blowing. The nearest deposit of the rocks they needed was under an incredibly important historical structure, and they didn’t think twice about breaking it down for fucking rocks. Who could possibly do that without even checking to see if it’s okay? It would be one thing if they bribed the government into allowing them to dig there (which does happen), but they didn’t even bother with that! The assumption that they don’t even need permission to destroy a historical structure of that level of importance is… I have no words for it.

strandbooks: Nice collection of photos! Favorite: lower right...

Mon, 13 May 2013 13:42:29 -0400

strandbooks:

Nice collection of photos! Favorite: lower right corner - reading in the stacks.

youlyingsonofabitch:

Favorite Place

Strand Bookstore

I love this store.